I just basically finished a post and it fucking dissapeared. Seriously? Life can be a bitch, but I’m not gonna let it break me.

Today my phone woke me up. My father was calling. It was 10am. I was slightly shocked, cuz I felt so tired. I usually get up around 7/8 and I feel fine. That I felt like somebody put weight on my limbs. I could barely move. The funny thing is that I was plaanning on Working Out today, before breakfast. I realized there’s no chance I’m gonna be able to excercise. Walking to the bathroom was a challenge, I have no idea why. Nevetheless I chose not to give up. But than I made a mistake. I decided that coffe on bare stomach is not a bad idea. It was. I actually had 2 coffes - Maybe 1,5 - And that was simply fucking dumb. I kept asking myslef: Why? I almost fainted. I got up and I went blind. That is what caffeine on bare stomach does to me. I was a little scared. I really want to Work Out today. I tried not to panic and I than drank this Diet Crap Sachette - It has L-Carnitine among other substances, so it’s good for excercising. Now I am going for a run. When I come back I’ll do some arms/belly building stuff. I really need to Work Out. I want my Satisfaction - My New Favourite Word. Satisfaction. I’m afraid that I may faint in the middle of the street, yet I hope that fresh air will just do me some good. I know I fucked up with this whole coffe bussiness, but I will not let it drag me down. No way. Wish me luck!